“Nothing’s like anything else in the long run.
Nothing you write down is ever as true as you think it was.”
-Charles Wright, “Lost Souls”-
Rememory is just a thing we do when we “need” it – or, for reasons that aren’t really rational at all – we seem to feel we do. In other words, our experience (what our organism, our little assemblage of cells, lives through) works in us like nutrients that our neuronally connected organs (even smaller collectives of cellular functional troupes) select predictively – as probable perhapses – to aid our survival in each moment.
That it’s always subject to change, often flatly incoherent, or dreadfully inappropriate to any given situation proffers no guilt or dishonor – could we really expect accurate predictions of unforeseen and total novelty with infinite contingencies each next moment is?
We do the best with what we have. After all, we’re not even able to use our tools intentionally – they work on automatic algorithms we are not aware of unless there is a problem. Scientists might use machines and fabricated contraptions or instruments to measure and calculate “experiences/experiments” – something semi-controlled, devised and arranged in a lab. We, on the other hand (scientists included), do not have access to our controls (of which there really aren’t any – just meticulously interconnected and recursively interactive meshworks) – our controls (or rather, effects) result in their humming along.
Ah, rememory, refraction – there whenever we need it (or think/feel we do, or hadn’t even sensed it) – and never to the point but that we make it so – experiencing piecemeal fragments the system spits out in relation to itself and its environment, and puzzling them together as if encountered in the world – using them like stencils or frames through which to assess our surrounds.
What a tricky treat! Phantasms of deconstructed digestions floating a stream, plucked willy-nilly by impulsory triggers and collaged onto a canvas called Perception. Howdy-do! When 80% of the show is our relation to ourselves, it’s no wonder we feel criticized! (for a sensory example – here’s a breakdown of what influences what we see….):
- from Maturana and Varela, The Tree of Knowledge
Each of us with our 80/20 view on the realms between – the worlds we share – it’s no wonder we’re ill at ease arguing agreements. I’d have to ask my sons to calculate the potentials, but even from my 80+20 it’s infinitesimal – our shot at “sharing a moment” as we say.
-from Rick Hanson, Buddha’s Brain-
Perhaps to some Turing machine, or deep-distance galaxy view we’d look like a calibrated system, but the contingencies and unknown variables all changing with each changing change surpass even the weather…
So go on rememoring and adapting your stories, just keep in mind the bric-a-brac you’re rummaging in and it’s exponentially altering situation and experiencing states (by the millisecond), and consider offering those with and around you something in the neighborhood of 80% benefit of your doubt (your self-generated POV)!?
“I give you mine [dreams] for the same reason,
To summon the spirits up and set the body to music.”
-Charles Wright, Lost Souls-