“a writer has no proper existence”
-Maurice Blanchot-
“I can’t say I want to kill myself, but I can say I don’t want to appear”
-Catherine Malabou-
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simply, naively, if I decide to retreat from others, to look from some seclusion, or solitude, or shelter, and if retreat has retreated from the distinction between its proper and its metaphorical meaning, what can I reach where and when I retreat? Nothing proper, no authenticity, I can’t obtain any truth, any essential way of being, because the difference between the proper and the figurative, between authenticity and inauthenticity, between truth and falsity, between what is essential and what is not have withdrawn.
-Catherine Malabou-
Polysemic Stupor 
Dear N Filbert, this made me so exciting, Thank you so much. I want to read and search more about her, Heidegger always in my mind, one of difficult one for me. Thank you again, Love, nia