Great writing, in my opinion…
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suggest reading accompanied by : Home Again by Keith Kenniff
“we live in accumulations of the actual / with so little understanding”
I believe that it is possible to make stories out of anything, with words. Even wordless ones.
Stories on the move, within movement, perhaps even moving.
Accumulation and erosion, not addition and subtraction, multiples or divides – not mathematics, simply or complex.
In relations – part of related systems of relations, related further on, in, out – there are no statics, numbers, letters – even hypothetically. When you fix one you’ve simply entered another system of relations relating to other fixed (or agreed-upon) relations, lifeless but for you. Until employed. Then your letter, number, static sign or symbol dissolves right back into what it came from – the roiling motion of temporal patterns and relations – change processing itself.
The meanings meander through like liquids. Each part spilling its own glass. Watch it flow, divert, tumble and pool. Percolate. Evaporate. Stories.
Describing them, no matter how many points of view or entry, how many semiotic systems employed, internal or external – observation is evaluation, almost objectively subjective – merely mean a story, embodying an absorbing and evaporative spilling of change. Eddies a bit, branches and drips, absorbs here and there, ever morphing form and content.
I can only ever tell you – in this system of systems of relations, this language – what I do not know.
The fathers, the mothers, their partners and pasts, the living of nine children to this moment – refuse to be snap-shotted still, photographed, imagined, or defined. They are unknowns, rife with variables, and related. Related to relations and related systems of relations related further out, in, on…
Genuinely incomprehensible. Evaporating almost as soon as precipitate, incalculable with options and openness – far more than this system can relate.
The fathers love their wives and women, their sons and their daughters, and sometimes it’s even perceived that way. The women, mothers, partners, also love – and everyone’s love is conditioned and conditional. Givers, receivers, assertive, supportive, neglectful, abusive, indulgent, and free at a price. Relational acts in related systems of relations – addressors and addressees, perceived and perceiving, at once.
Each its own glass spilling. Each its own refilled. The sharing of endless waters.
Shagg dribbles fluid ice-cold onto a young one’s burn. Rather than soothe it stings. Recoils. Mother in attempting to quench a thirst, drowns it instead. A child spills that all might see, might hear, might feel. Instead it’s absorbed deftly and quickly – instinctively – by inanimate terry cloth, a dish-towel, a bathrobe.
A possiblitiy of endless supply, of infinite, is foreign to all but dreams. We know nothing unpolluted or immeasurable. We must not write what we know. Nothing there but an emptying glass.
Instead, perhaps, to offer and receive – these fluids, this language – of unknown origin and imperceivable limit – spilling together compounding toward stories. Even as it spills. Even uncontrollable and ill-perceived.
Families of stories. Write what you do not know.
I struggled this week, this picture, and the myriad of life going on…couldn’t seem to find a spark. But in the spirit of Friday Fictioneers, felt I oughta make a go of it. So here it is – and in accord, many thanks to Rochelle Wisoff-Fields for taking up the inspirational, curatorial mantle of keeping our practice alive!
Stomps back, livid grimaced flesh flushed, shouts, more of a gritty scrape of screed: “you never…anyway…I don’t know why I ever…” huffs, seethes, jolting in a kind of place.
Unseen, steely, weight of concrete in its rage, him, silent, back there, unmoving. Something trembles.
Wind too, perhaps occasions of rain, drizzle, precipitation seems likely, somewhere, here, somehow.
She keeps it going, it’s like a flood, like a multi-chambered dart gun, can’t seem to stop, doesn’t want to end. Not silence. Not distance. Disregarding.
Something recedes, perhaps him. Substances exiting every direction. All wearing out.
Everything outside this window.
N Filbert 2012
as prompted by Friday Fictioneers / Madison-Woods
How quiet the morning. How light, though the flashlight remained still on the table. Everything in its place, nothing to ruffle it undone anymore. A morning in which the air had presence, its emptiness. A sea near. He thought to make coffee. Thought to stir things up a bit. Suspected he should act or behave, carry on with routines, open blinds, crack eggs. He could not. Could only stand in this all-too-familiar entrance to morning, and realize. Realize, as empty as the air filled with hazy light, empty as the counters without clutter, that where she had gone she would never return.
N Filbert 2012