I get a little weary of philosophy. It fascinates and intrigues, has its spectacular, glittering moments of what feels like beauty and “accomplishment” – like architecture, the sciences and arts, studies human and social and hard. But with each human activity and behavior there can be too much of a good thing. Perhaps it’s the fantasies involved in abstraction – in the feeling of “figuring things out,” or of “making sense” – our human super-additives to experience that are also experience themselves – that I, at times, weary of. That eminently falsifiable intuition that everything is made up.
It is extremely hard work to keep up a worldview. Involving enormous complexities and details, layer up on layer and strand interweaving strand of biological and logical, illogical, psychological, irrational, emotional, – ologies and descriptions, manipulated perceptions and re-interpretations of interpretations reinterpreted (ad infinitum) – it takes matter and energy, and particular organisms, which grow tired.
Those same realities, capacities and activities are also extremely inspiring, enervating and exciting for organisms – the behaviors of productivity, creativity, imagination and survival – and our weird confounding capacity to think we can observe our perceptions/observations to an infinite regress, make for a very strange frenzy of energy and matter indeed.
In a possibly (?!) infinitely webbed interdependence with our surround copious possibilities of activity are available – all bewildering: chaos can be so generative. Chaos can be so nullifying.
What might we know?
And why do we want to?
- That we are organism within dynamic systems? (How would we know that, from within the systems?)
- That we are dynamic organisms alongside other dynamic forms of matter and energy? (Sometimes seems to be our sense of it – that we might somehow step aside – wha-?!)
Alongside and within – in order to be – apparently (that is, according to OUR OWN perceptions) – however would could we exist either detached (abstracted) or without (independently, unattached). To imagine distance, “objectivity,” without the imaginative capacities of fantasy – illusions – for example logic, mathematics, economics, philosophy, psychology – codes and symbols – DElusions in order to play the games in these forms of life we are with delusional sincerity – effectively. And our fantastic delusions or profound poeitic creations are often effective, productive, pragmatic, dynamic and evolving – techniques and time – which would seem to imply that they also are part of being within a myriad of dynamic systems…
…one might suppose (i.e. “hypothesize”); or infer (i.e. “fantasize”)
All an immersion in symbols – languages – stipulated relations – codified behaviors –
– which is what I had set out to consider
drowning in symbols
the wonder and bewilderment of it
the sense of delusion and ecstasy