Polysemic Stupor

for Holly Suzanne to years of strange knowing

The Estrangement – Our Union

 

the moments

so suddenly

and you become such stranger

to me

(I have loved you a very long time)

 

stark absence

of what’s familiar

remaining so

and unknown

(I keep reaching you for)

 

this the home we live in

this our marriage bed

these the children we have raised

these our blending heads

(I have yet to know an after)

 

there exist entire stanzas

of this our musical life

in which an harmony obtains

within these vast cadenzas

(in which I’m caught and mesmerized)

 

 

me watching you watching

me watching you

in your soloing flight

estranged and in-different-

(-ly than I this union)

 

and I wonder

how might I know you ever,

knowing you so well, and being known

bi-you’d, bi-me’d, both by each other

(this joining of mouths, bodies…