I and the Anyone Artefact.
Given the miniscularity and brevity…and, say, the import or apparent heft – foils of mountain, sea, sky, and other incremental gravities or scale-altering engagements…
…what boils down in my insignificant, barely mappable blip of a space-form “life-span”?
What do I want? (Mountain. Man. Collective of actionable atoms.)
Or how about in another form: I, mountain, atom, want to write, am writing,
leaving record (partly), making record (partly), finding record (partly),
recording (partly), imagining (partly), learning (partly), playing (partly),
wondering (partly), thinking (partly), providing (manufacturing) company (partly),
because I can and it makes living-through delightful, meaningful, poignant, aware, alert…
Simply…I accounted for happiness recently as reading, writing and forms of companionship, because reading and writing (inseparable companions, or perhaps two aspects utterly meshed and merged, inextricably joined) – experiencing them seems to me to be enhanced when compatibly shared, mutually valued, reciprocated and informed.
I want to write. I want what I write to provide sustenance for my self and children and home. I want to write whatever I have it in me to make out of language, not what people ask me to write or pay me to write or suggest that I write.
There is a grand, iconic, snow-capped mountain – Kilimanjaro, Hood, Vesuvius – symmetrical-seeming mounds of earth that simply and irreducibly and undeniably say – silently and continuously – “I AM HERE.”
I exist. I mark. I testify to and quarry that existence in my way. I artefact.
[Write well. Parent well. Perhaps partner.]
“Companionship”: friendship, fellowship, closeness, togetherness, amity, intimacy, rapport,
camaraderie, brotherhood, sisterhood; company
[wants to be a writer. writes. AM a writer. wants to support existence by doing that which it wants : to write]
“the intersection of talents and joys”
[wants to parent well. to develop thoughtful, compassionate, productive child-persons of survivable health. parents.]
To artefact (not for longevity or endurance [perhaps partly – a kind of sustenance surely]) but to quarry the systems and processes – the multitude of unknowns to living-through.
I artefact – consciously to be present, to offer, to be worthwhile, to further matter (to participate in generation, ongoing complexity, collaboration, coordination and collocation – co-being, co-construction with world).
Write. Parent. Relate. (therefore) I, artifact (make ‘art’ in ‘fact’).
[take in artefacts via world – learn, adopt, adjust, adapt, extend – and artifact this process out]
These are wonderful, benign, banal, investigations.
The Simply Difficult: WHAT AM I? WHO AM I? WHY? HOW? : The Questions of Living-Through.
(I repeatedly note that life interests me insofar as I am querying WHY people think they exist and attending to HOW …)
What are your answers to these? (my present mobile answers provided in parentheses)
- WHAT are you? (a temporary and dynamic collection of active molecules idiosyncratically coupled and formed)
- WHO are you? (a fluid and alterable co-depending individuated space-form reciprocally coupled to its perceptual and perceiving, cognizable surround)
- WHY are you? (a form of life…to be)
- HOW are you? (idiosyncracies=personhood: the fluctuating continuum of activities and behaviors between what I contain and what contains me…the marginal substance where uniqueness exhibits)
Or… I, Mountain / You, Sky. Ocean. Flock. Field. Plain.
Metaphor: perhaps our primary mode of learning? Posit, compare, examine, observe, revise, pretend, fabricate, manipulate, invent: “Make-sense”=”Knowledge / Learning”
All of this to say that every object(form) at every moment is responsible for the possibilities of meaning.
We could be anyone (and will be, have been, are, plus…) individually (or ‘uniquely’ ANYone).
IN OTHER WORDS: I want to stop whatever this is and tell you.
Want to tell you I LOVE YOU. I am personally thankful that you exist and am convinced the entire world would be different (no matter how miniscule or brief you may be) if there were not you (seems to be the way EVERYthing – systemically – IS). So I am thankful (good or ill) that: ARE. IS.
Say there is/was a child. Mountain. Hypothesis. Arrangement. Beginning. Again. Scenario.
ARTIFACT: Chance. Atom. Action. Experience. Being.
Pretend: Sky crashes.
Mountain melts away.
All = nada.
And then “YOU”= WHO? WHAT? WHY? HOW? (WHERE is implicit)
p.s. someone will die in someone’s arms
p.p.s. someone will write about it, remember
p.p.p.s. someone might sing
p.p.p.p.s. someone will represent it in paint/clay/language/dance/sound
Mountain Sky Ocean Trees Soil
2 thoughts on “I, Artifact, Anyone”
You are amazing, Impressed me. But you know I will read again and again. Thank you dear N Filbert, love, nia
thank you dear Nia! So much. Your consistent attention and care has kept me at it more times than one! 🙂 Thank you.