The 44th Turn

You ache.

You are older,

and beautiful,

in the way piles of gravel

surprise you

along the turnpike.


Those gathered around you

are increasingly less –

less in years, less in words,

and less in common –

saving the uncommon

tastes and thoughts and talents.


You still have books

and a dimming light

and more than enough love.

You eat, you drink, and make merry.

Some things you remember together,



almost the necessary ones,

say a child, a lover, a poem.

There are gifts, a few –

those given you yourself

and to others –

“the allowance” –



care and celebration,

some sweet welcoming,

some join.


It’s alright,

she is here, beside you,

they are sleeping in their beds,

are scattered to the days,

are bleeding, are breathing


so much talk of labor

in our culture –

piles of effort

for finding peaceful paths,

to the country,

the cabin,

toward some freedom

to live.


We live.

Our days adding up

while counting down,

in strange measures –

now in years,

by the hours,

in moments.

3 thoughts on “The 44th Turn

  1. “Our days adding up

    while counting down,

    in strange measures -”
    How your words can convey a crystal of a moment… And have reminded me of my own (mortal anxiety?) glimpses over my shoulder at the folding memories, stacking and dissolving. The feeling is indescribable, but you have described it here.

"A word is a bridge thrown between myself and an other - a territory shared by both" - M. Bakhtin

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