In an act of rebellion and a kind of self-serving exorcism or slate-clearing (what blog is NOT an attempt at an entity’s expression, communication?), and facing the duress of weeks burdened with commitments and inescapable responsibilities…[in other words]…I intuit I am encountering a “time” (weeks / months / foreseeable futures?) that I deduce as laden – somehow preordained – for preoccupations of employment, previously established obligations – freighted with encumberances complexly negotiated…[under pressure I compose]…and so I search for a project [as is my way] that is FOR ME[?] (something autotrophic, self-cannibalizing and nourishing at once, individually comprised and contained) an insurrection and defiance honoring self [so I surmise] facing compulsion…

…and I unearth these 9 Notebooks…all aborted undertakings from the past 12 months…via which I propose to mount mutiny by posting all that seems potentially warranted in them [upon re-reading as if the first time, long forgotten]…toward little other purpose than for purging, opening, erasing – a clearinghouse of efforts – that might evolve toward some novel substitution, unforeseen modification, development, emergence…

“this is what directs him to learning – where he may encounter fragments of his own existence,

fragments that are still within the context…”

– Walter Benjamin on Franz Kafka – 

There will be stories, concepts, poems, characters, reflections, essays…and ephemeral scraps like these…

• think feel – attune to meaning – reflect and refract
• befriend your body, take care with your mind
• be gentle, be open.  move fluidly, breathe
• go alert to your dreams
• wish more than hope, walk don’t run, run sometimes
• be careful of rules, they’re always changing, it’s the nature of the rule, the measure, the standard
• keep your eyes and ears open, along with heart and mind – only let things close into pleasure and pain – and that more of a wince
• don’t be afraid of your story – write and rewrite it, edit and revise, revise, revise, and write it again