an artifact we conjured
“Words give clothing to hide our nakedness”
“But a word is a bottomless pit”
And then it arrives, unexpectedly, another gap. She sees a magician in bright jester’s garb, seated on a branch in a tree. Amid the traffic. Amid a swarm of bees, of thrumming crows and starlings. A bat lies in labored breathing on the sidewalk.
Lightning- and Lady- bugs.
Like that, like both.
There is no goal to it in the beginning. At first. The seconds’ glow catches you off guard. “What was that?” neon spot moving in the night. Imperceptible polka-dotted red creeping carefully over your toe. Structures pause. Structures moment. When realized, when you bring your own accident: awareness.
What pressures turns out to be necessity. Of deadline, of assignment, of transactional fulfillment – relationship or vocation, even health. Without apparent choice. Or ever so long ago. Why markings called parentheses are shields. What gives pause. And stays the pressuring. For the moment.
An extended kiss.
A lapse in volume.
An ignored alarm.
You find yourself there : (YOU).
The rest of the world lining up, encroaching, exerting itself, themselves, your other selves, against the slender boundaries, the slick curving walls – they can’t be climbed, nor be toppled, only inverted )if you accept the pressures(, or erased as if they’d never happened. Become brackets. Prison versus asylum (in its native safety-seeking sense).
(YOU)? )YOU(? [YOU]? ]YOU[?
Now and then. Another pause. Another Sabbath. A so-called rest. Time is not the issue (as duration). Time is at issue in its momentary absence. Glancing the lightning-bug, bird-call, ladybug feeling out the stem.
“Another pause” with pressures all around. Expectations or chores. But no one calling, not this now. Last week too, unexpected, unprepared, cage door left awry, or finding key in hand. Parentheses. And then you sleep that active way we call “rest.” For a moment. You make, for the joy of making, or not. Either way is pleasure. Or pleasant at the most.
Such as now, another pause, this day, another Someday that arrived.