Nihilism – Melancholy – Language – Silence
No meaning (no matter)
Sorrow (fail again)
Speak (try again)
Silence (fail better?)
A darkness. Immersion. This life. The living it. Ever to and toward a pointless death (again, another, also). To be. To be (as human). To wish. To wish for otherwise(s). To IMAGINE.
Music. Vision. Feeling. Sound ~ Meaning.
I am (one) capable of crafting a fine sentence.
And so – ?
She sings, birdlike, wind-like, tree-like, animal, a hiss of land.
He cavorts shapes, models, architecture – opportunities of space – perhaps, perhaps not yet, perhaps becoming. In progress…
That one strikes a chord: says. Plays. Possible resonance. Possible possible. Manufacturing potential.
I am forlorn. Shorn. Shriven, stricken, silent.
Working within the arranging of existing things – without vision – mathematician with its figures, logician with axioms, linguist syllabic syntagms. Utilizing signs. Pre-existing me – letters and language – scratches and symbols – touches and sights – emotions and thoughts and exhaust…
A signal, a marking, a shape inferring sound
(above some hopeful/hopeless void)
Organism ~ orgasm. Biologically an entity capable of immersive ecstasy. What can, might, has the potential to be – la petite mort – weakening of consciousness, swoon, a likening unto death. This life. The living it. Ever to and toward a pointless death (again, another, also). To be. To be (as human). To wish. To wish for otherwise(s). To IMAGINE.
As much or as often as possible. Regardless of structure, import, complexity, complication or difficulty, even desire – BODILY – as organism ~ orgasm FEELS whole, full, exceptional. Pain, lack, abuse, obtrusion, power, inequality, mystery, vanish, abandon…and yet… the body in orgasm is ecstatic – a weakening of consciousness, swoon, a likening unto death. Ecriture.
Try (again), ask for (fail again), achieve (fail better)
Anyway, anyhow, silence.
THERE IS ONLY SO MUCH TIME!
The rest go hang – come undone – fail, fall, try harder, wish, hope, imagine – make sense, sensibility, concept, meaning – IN ANY CASE: organism ~ orgasm – more pain and more pleasure will come, will follow upon, will remember, remain – time and consequence – a weakening, a swoon, a likening unto death.
Orga(ni)sm doesn’t care. All impact an add-on. Intellect / emotion / sensation / cognition / perception – derivative, invented – and yet – orgasm is an organismic moment. La petite mort. Ecriture.
Generative? Reproducing (or not). Informative (or not). Act, study, behave (or not). And then…NOT. Organismic gathering toward totality for a moment. There is living, there is dying (and death) and they (in fact) are indistinguishable. This life. The living it. Ever to, in, toward pointless death (again, another, also). To be. To be (as human). To wish. To wish for otherwise(s). To IMAGINE. Being orgasmically.
To live. To die. (breathe out).
It is windy.