reflections, remarks…word-press – Feb 18, 2012

listening to “in the stream” by S. Carey)

those rarities, Kansas expressing itself moistly, greyly, gently, 45 degrees

swinging on porch, watching children fill up papers with marks, pictures, “pictographs,” symbols, words and letters

watching wife seek “just the right terms” (le mot juste) to represent her vision and beliefs regarding human possibilities and health for a webpage for her therapeutic practice

reading Merwin, Laura (Riding) Jackson, Charles Bernstein, Colson Whitehead, Jerome Klinkowitz in stolen moments throughout the day in order to continue a pondering, a willingness, an open stance toward the world and the persons populating it with perspectives and politics

wondering nostalgically, tenderly, familiarly through the mental stacks – spines like Dostoevsky and Sterne, Balzac and Bakhtin, Kafka, Pessoa, Jabes, Cixous, on, on, on…

how very many words have pressed through, been impressed and imprinted…how much has pressed through words…

a cursory glance at wordpress stats today – hundreds of thousands of blogs of signs upon signs upon signs of human upon human    upon human, pressing words out, in – words pressing them…

Beckett and Blanchot’s concept of exigency, that we have a meaningless compulsion to say, resonates…

Laura and Schuyler Jackson’s magnum opus (“Rational Meaning”), a lifetime of work, situated on two lifetimes ponderings of human engagement with language, that, indeed there must be meaning to it for the human and out terms…resonates

that we go on saying… and on… saying… and on… saying… and on…

seems particularly potent and precious to me today

Thank you to everyone pressing and being pressed by – word(s)!!

Repetitive exercise

In Passing

notes to the soundtrack for my final disappearance

  1. This is how we emerge                                            Concrescence by Caspian

                  beginning rhythm and reference

                  repetition and development of variations

                 slowly, gently

                 steady structures, establishing chords, core melodies

                 nostalgia for simplicity, grace of being

                 opening…up….toward, into

  1. This is how we make              Freedom Blade by This Will Destroy You / Lymbyc System

              as out from dreams, while dreaming remains

             principles, values, self inquiry

             as gradual clearings of fog

             acquiring voice, an “I”, somethings to say and to be

             slowly, gradually, reaching and dredging

            tinkering, organizing, choosing, placing

            beginning to see

           to open to feel

            Hello…I am…there is…

  1. Entering depth…                                 Epochs in Dmaj by Caspian

                 coming toward finding

                 concentration, inquiry, staying, layering, unlayering

                 passion builds this way

                empathy…moving into…world…self…other

               touching…diving…flying…swimming

               entering living

  1. Grief                                           Less by Nils Frahm

                what is singular

                 isolation

                tears

               “Less.” things, people, potentials, possibilities can be lost

                ache. desire.. wish. sorrow

                muffling pain…our inner workings…

                the stillness, the silence surround

                to remember

                to wonder and to miss. to fall or to fail or need to lie down

                to yearn from pain. to want.

               to experience less. lack.

                learning subtlety

  1. Heaving the scream              Three-Legged Workhorse by This Will Destroy You

    rage. revenge. determination. to seethe

    out of ashes…begin again

    explicitly

    Anger.

    To choose

    Obstruction. Opposition.

    To work. To pound. To continue.

    To find vocation.

    Three-Legged…to step forth with all one has…and step and step and struggle and step

    To tear away and apply…not to stop…to expand

    Insist

    To break forth. Announce. I am!

    I am, I am, I still am…

    to recede…I may be….but only

    toiling away…a way forward, surely, toiling…

    the keeping at…the consume…continue, continue

    I can’t go on…I must. go. on….through

  1. Personal Victories                                  Any Other Name by Thomas Newman

    gains. comprehensions.

    coming to respond to one’s own “I am”

    to say yes. alone. with world. in world.

    perhaps not of

    but alive

    aware one is alive

    one is

    and a world of others

    breath. grace.

    learning to say okay to one’s self, to world

  1. Happening                                        Day 1 by Explosions in the Sky

              engagement

              there is a world and it is occuring, happening

             events

              experience, experiments

              accumulation and then freedom (from and to)

              fascination, wonder

              wide-eyed…beholding

              possibility of promise…clear air

  1. Perspective                                 Over There, It’s Raining by Nils Frahm

    reflection

    a widening of borders, boundaries

    liminality of it all

    flow, spread, rest…

    far beyond one…

  1. Love                    The Only Moment We Were Alone by Explosions in the Sky

    shock of AN other

    thumps, rocks…startlement…stun

    feels like a different world

    unknowns

    disbelief

    wonder

    amaze

    …like revelation…

    pours down…trickle at first…

    more…more… (heartbeats)

    more…more…

    learning, details, fullness, expansion, sky, night, grandeur, power, ecstasy, mushrooming…breath, joining, at a jog…a joy…

    it arrives = AT ONCE! CULMINATIVE! TOGETHER!

    ENORMITY! gasp or sigh

    down…

    up…

    recede…

    return…

    elation – anguish – hope – despair

    Love.

  1. New heights, new depths…recovering…                  Epochs in Dmaj by Caspian

    left up, out, space, sky, night

    adrift, afloat

    looking around…

    still here…remains…

    vision changed, rearranged…

    world different again…

    to absorb, take in, a daze, a comfort

  1. To season                            Mighty Rio Grande by This Will Destroy You

    to have lived

    endured

    to still be standing, crawling, walking, breathing

    to build again…

    learning to live in the world, the “there are”

    and you are…one among…

    becoming part…

    years, seasons, days, people, places, works, movements,

    actions, sayings, knowings, doings, losses, gains,

    accumulate…a-mounts…a thickness to things

          nostalgia, tenderness, fullness, its dream

          presence, presents, worth, echoes, its sea

          plenty, rise, rest…

          prepare…we are not through

          heart quickens…

         construct your words, your deeds, character

         begin to GIVE

         to RECEIVE

         ………………incredible fullnesses of joy………………

         this dizzying intoxicating enormousness of world, of life

         this paradise of being: look! listen! taste touch smell!

          SEE! BE!! Oh just be!!! (PRAISE)

           and then…………..

                                         carry……….

  1. The Final New…                                     Postcard from 1952 by Explosions in the Sky

                where is this? where am I? where are we going?

                wha-?!

                let go………….

               release……….

               spread out…join…grow light

               sweetly and sweetly sing

               smile….acknowledge….thank….

on………..

upon surface of waves of cloud of sky of dream of eyes of breath of bodies and hands and hair and tongue and voice and meetings and partings and griefs and joys and haunts and words and journeys and memories and imaginations and….

and on………..

(delivery)

– so long –

(a star implodes)

  1. Reverberations Freedom Blade by This Will Destroy You / Lymbyc System

Excerpt

“I do not know whether semiology will ever establish itself as a science.  The very people who observe this discipline have difficulty in defining it because everything is a sign in the world of forms, sounds, and colors, and a science embracing everything remains inconceivable.  But if we want to bide by verbal languages there are certainly considerable differences between the word as it is seen and the word as it is read and understood.  The word as it is seen is far less alphabetical than the word as it is read and pronounced.  It can be regarded as an ideogram.

Its faults are its lack of multivalence and its claim to some lasting truth.  The industry of communication would be basically undermined if the various means of expression claimed to have any duration in time.  What we need is not language but the suggestion, the arabesque, which is born and dies within a few minutes.  What we need is that which we see, hear, and touch for a single moment, and which is then consumed and replaced by a similar stimulus”

-Eugenio Montale-

 

Up in Word(s) Addenda 2…

Would appear somewhere, must, would need to, a chapter called “Where Now? Who Now?” by Maurice Blanchot on Samuel Beckett…

Up Against the Word(s) : Part the Second

Up Against the Word(s)

– a philosophy of language series –

in the sociology of knowledge

[if this book were a book and shaped like a rectangle, it would be redundant among other things and so on, but perhaps it is a circle and therefore repetition is therefore]

(one of many disclaimers)

Part the Second: True to your word(s)

And so one must wonder over/about how to shape or forge a writing that might be “true.” True to what? is the question that first comes to my mind. Immediately I sense an answer along the lines of “true to experience, human experience, living.”

Okay. But the options are many, perhaps limitless, no? It is easy to imagine someone setting out using language in hopes to be true to a theory, or a memory, an historical event, a relationship or a dream, a feeling or a painting one has seen. Some may intend to be true to the present (as it’s occurring) or to the past as it’s been recounted or remade in language or impression? To be true to ideas or previously languaged things (obviously involving so very many removes and hypotheses about what the previous tellers were attempting to be “true” to, or not). Or how about language itself, theis malleable system of signs, communication – how it works, what it references, invents, incites, depending on the terms selected, their organization, pronunciation, punctuation, etymologies, contexts and ideologies?

All would apparently boil down to the experience of the one implementing the signs: how that one has acquired the forms, contents, vocabularies, grammars and syntaxes of the utilized signs, or, beyond that, their singular perception and interpretation of their own memories, relations, readings, hearsay, acquisition of data and so forth. All to say “truth,” if one means by that some objective correlative to actuality, to “things as they are,” seems highly suspect, even as in this case, I might attempt to be “true” to the highly suspect meaning of the word and signified concept (ideology) “truth.”

So, if correlation to actuality becomes a highly individualized affair of each language-user, that a human, in fact, cannot hope to use words in any fashion directly translatable or apprehensible to another…why the setting out to inscribe?

One might suggest it’s a relative thing – like space and time – that communication takes place in fields of overlap between the flexible meanings of signs. That one hopes for difference and therefore the requisite similarities, to provide and provoke comprehensions limiting and expanding but somewhat assimilable – conversational – texting-with, vocalizing-with, another or others…some active reduction and proliferation of possibilities between multiple language-users and their contexts of situations.

Fair enough. A hope for convergences in a commonly based palette and culturation. Generalized and individualized from all sides.

Is this what the “writer” is after? Some correspondence (between themselves and their experience, between that relational complex and others)? Perhaps. Or maybe more accurately the languaging impulse fluctuates along a vast scale of minute gradations of aims and intentions, including, always, the relational effects of using (participating, knowing) language itself. It’s a mud pie! And so beautiful it looks like chocolate mousse sometimes.

And just became so, in the metaphoring of a kind of pie some persons will recognize, depending on their own experience and the culture they come from.

In part.

new blog series…in parts…Up With the Words

UP WITH THE WORDS

– a philosophy-of-language series –

in the sociology of knowledge

In handwriting, the relation of Being to man, namely the word, is inscribed in beings themselves”

-Martin Heidegger-

Saying ceases to signify: it reveals realities that are unintelligible and untranslatable

but not incomprehensible. It does not signify, yet at the same time

it is impregnated with meaning.”

-Octavio Paz-

I’ and not-‘I’…one projecting the outer world to the inside,

the other projecting the inside to the outer world [perception],

as a result of mutual conditioning…

language creation occurs where new layers of reality and insight

are opened up.”

-Hermann Broch-

full of you’ll never know what will turn up”

-Madeline Gins-

Part 1: Writing at Hand (Drawing from drawing, sketches of the word)

To be rigorously true to real life (living, forming, becoming, always changing, and “full of you’ll never know what will turn up” –Gins) – its core, its essence, an identity or style: FLEXIBILITY.

To be: artifacts in space and time, “beings themselves,” words : inscribed with fullness of life, as fullness of life, into the arena of malleable life.

Object and action. Content informed. Activity and expression. Artifact and energy. Verb-al and signifying. Image and text.

Fluid like air bordering, permeating all things

Substantial like raindrops and rocks – objective presences, assimilable and distinct.

Energy and stasis. Reduced and expansive.

Sign and signifiant.

subject and object.

WORD.

medium and matter

conveyor and creator

virus and vaccine

WORD

symbiosis and annihilation of Either/Or

inherent argument against Both/And

Presence and/in/with/through Absence

WORD

a thing, an action, a subject, an object, a without-which-perhaps-nothing,

a with-which-very-little

almost nothing

WORD

possibility and elimination / among and without

the difference

WORD

bridge and abyss, rift and synthesis

cleft

WORD

perception and preconception. observant and observed. verbal and nominal.

comprehensible and ineffable

WORD

Swinging the Breaches

Hugo von Hofmannsthal

Each time I read again von Hofmannsthal’s “The Letter of Lord Chandos,” I resonate with it profoundly, each time with unique phrases and observations in it.  Today it is the bewildering of art-working, the too much and too little of it at once.  The overwhelm that becomes as perception received / perceptions projected cross and mingle in a deafening void – filled with “the thoughts of so many others caught and resting there.”

Hermann Broch, writing on von Hofmannsthal, speaks of man “unable to bridge the tension between perceiving and the perceived, completely at the mercy of unperceivable experiences, of objects, their impalpability, incomprehensibility, their irony…the contrast of the ‘I’ and the ‘non-I,” of being-‘I’ and being-the-world…one projecting the outer world to the inside, the other projecting the inside to the outer world, a result of mutual conditioning.”

“For of what elements does this non-‘I’ consist, this exterior world wherewith the ‘I’ is supposed to identify itself?  Firstly, the world is in constant motion; secondly, and this is far more disturbing: all means of expression (linguistic or otherwise) given to man to describe the world are part of that world; and thus, thirdly, with each act of identification a portion of the ‘I’ enters the non-‘I’, changing and enriching the non-‘I’ so that a new act of identification becomes a necessity…which leaves only ever a work in progress and never a completed work of art”

My case in short: I have lost completely the ability to think or to speak of anything coherently” I feel the terms crumble and proliferate in my mindmouth (heart?) – “to me it is as though my body consists of nought but ciphers which give me the key to everything” – the impressions that stir in and assault me, the world and its stuff that I soak in, hear, sense, the thoughts of so many others – indecipherable ciphers in me that feel they possess the key to everything…but for which I have no words…

So I face and engage the world, “experiences,” events, persons, the blank page, pregnant, saturate with languages that don’t equal…“because the language in which I might be able not only to write but to think, is neither Latin nor English, neither Italian nor Spanish, but a language none of whose words is known to me”

continually speechless in this profligate void

So what is to be done?  No completing, “a new act of identification becomes a necessity,” apparently woven of my scattering perceptive confusion/profusion and all the not-‘I’ that feels so everywhere-at-once…it leaves Chandos silent, and a whole tribe of Bartleby’s…faced with a world and enormous impressions…but no apparent vocabulary fulfilling them both?

Silence?  Or, possibly…

“Saying, it ceases to signify: it reveals realities that are unintelligible and untranslatable but not incomprehensible.  It does not signify, yet at the same time it is impregnated with meaning” (-Octavio Paz-)

The breaches…speechless moments…never quite right…can I swing them?  Term the betweens?  To the breach – !!

High on Words

Again with the word-thing!  I feel immersed and splendored with what language is and does!  Books like Ernesto Sabato’s Angel of Darkness and Macedonio Fernandez’s The Museum of Eterna’s Novel.  Adam Thirlwell’s Delighted States and Octavio Paz’ Convergences.  Eugenio Montale’s The Poet in Our Time and Jacques Roubaud’s Loop.  J.R. Firth’s Papers in Linguistics and Kierkegaard’s Philosophical Fragments.  Madeline Gins’ Helen Keller or Arakawa or C.S. Peirce on signs.  The verbal object astounds and amazes me in its flexibility and invention, its capacities and catalystics.  Simply holds me enthralled!

For instance:  I draw a line (scribble a text) and immediately there are two parts which are inseparable.  How describe that activity?  Did I separate or unite?  Both.  The difference.  Bridge and abyss.  Rift and collapse.  Reduction and expansion.  All in this active solution, signs gestures language.  Yeesh!

Celebrate today!  Ingest and create!  Read and speak!  See what words do and ask what would there be without them, whether inner speech or conversation, engagement with the world or invention of the self.  See how far words go!

Family Reading Guide

I have been seeking a pdf version of Ronald Sukenick’s essay “The New Tradition” which I read in a wonderfully rich and challenging book of his called “In Form.”  So far I haven’t been able to find it available online but wanted so badly to provide a link to the actual text that some of you might pursue it that far and come to take it into your psyches and bodies.  Please believe me it is worth the time and effort to Inter-Library Loan this title (In Form) or uncover some of the essays therein.  I urgently recommend his work to you!  Particularly his nonfiction/essay works – from Wallace Stevens to Narratology…take delight and courage!!

 

Nourishment

“It is art which makes life, makes interest, makes importance…

and I know of no substitute whatever for the force and beauty of its process”

-Henry James-