I am not a scholar. I know that now.
I am middle-aged.
I have pursued no discipline, field, or “area of knowledge” to its limits.
Librarian. “Litterateur” (awful sound). These.
Exploring fields: science, literature, philosophy, history, critical thought – through the “core literature” – the Canons of the Field.
Only so far.
Not to the ends.
What a novelist needs. Knowledge a little beyond average, a little obsessive, a little “never satisfied.”
A librarian: able to discourse with “Scholars” in any field – enough terminology, vocabulary, “core knowledge.”
“Jack of all trades, king of none.”
Librarian. Litterateur. (I don’t know what else to call it).
Degrees in Classical Music, Theology, Philosophy, Information Science, Art & Critical Thought.
But not “scholarship”.
Trying to be human.
Trying to know what I need to know to be that.
Trying to be.